Somewhere Between Who I Was and Who I'm Becoming

By Tanisha Ilwadi -
It's 25th June 2026 today. Fear? Anxiety? Excitement? Nostalgia? I can't seem to figure out which emotion I feel more in this moment. Coming back here, opening a new draft to write in, is giving me goosebumps in ways I could never imagine. There's this pit in my stomach, full of what ifs. To be honest, I don't even remember the last time I used this website. But today is different. Today, for the first time in a very long time, I thought about the 'why not?' Today, for the first time in a very long time, I have decided to restart. This feels like finding an old diary, hidden inside your cupboard for so long. It is a little embarrassing, but it is also me...

For a very, very long time I had completely forgotten about this space. I stopped writing, but I never stopped thinking. The thoughts always remained constant. Funny how after a point, life becomes so fast-paced. From board exams to finding the right college with the right course to figuring out which internships to do to what I will do after graduation. Somewhere between school, college, internships, responsibilities, and career growth, I slowly drifted away from just sitting down and writing like I used to do. No matter how many times I woke up thinking I would journal today, I always ended up forgetting it by the end of the day. 

But I feel like that's the beautiful thing about old spaces. They patiently wait for you to come back to them. And now after all this time, coming back here feels so different because I am a completely different person. I'm a changed person, changed by life's happenings. This person has grown; matured; changed opinions; collected experiences; failed; succeeded; learned; and has lived their life till now to the fullest.

And now that I have finally decided to come back to writing here, let me warn you, my dear readers, this blog is not going to be a perfectly curated corner of the internet. Instead, this will be a space for me to rant, to learn, to share, to express, and to write about my feelings. This space will be my own personal digital diary, and everybody out there is more than welcome to dive deep into it. You all, my dear readers, can join me in my experiences in life, learn from the mistakes I have made, and criticize me or judge me at any point you want to.

Although, forgive me, but I can't promise to write consistently. I think it's good to have self-awareness lol. But my loves, what I can promise is that every blog will contain something real, raw, and authentic; sometimes it might even blow your mind away, who knows, and sometimes it may even make you curse me out loudly. 

Anyway, I am having butterflies in my stomach while typing this (anxiety? excitement?), but I just have to say this.

I AM SO BACK!!!🤞💪🥰

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Trip to Shimla-Chail: Part 1 ~ A Dream Turned Nightmare

By Tanisha Ilwadi -
Image
Hey everyone! I'm back with another blog and this time it is about my recent trip to Shimla and Chail and all the amazing I made there with my family.  Before beginning, here's a little information for those who are unacquainted with these places. Shimla Swathed by cedar, rhododendron, fir and Himalayan oak trees, the state capital of Himachal Pradesh is one of the most popular hill stations in India. Basking in the grandeur of the British era with apparent influences in its architecture, Shimla did charm the British colonizers of the 19th century so much that they elevated the small township into the summer capital of an empire sprawling the sub-continent. Chail The erstwhile summer capital of the princely state of Patiala, Chail is an alluring hill station that lies about 63 km from Shimla. Nestled in the Himachal Pradesh’s Shivalik region, Chail is spread across the three hillocks - Sadh Tiba, Pandewa and Rajgarh. Surrounded by the beautiful pine and deodar forests, Chail is...
Read more

MEDUSA: PureITY OR Pure EVIL?

By Tanisha Ilwadi -
Image
Over the period of time we have seen and read about many legendary women of past and present. A few examples of these could be the divine Goddess Sita, the fearless feminist Draupadi, the woman who cheated death Kundalakesi, the faithful daughter and sister Antigone, the indestructible Mandodari, the exceptional Atlanta, etc.  Goddess Sita Draupadi Kundalakesi Antigone Mandodari Atlanta This time I am going to talk about another one of these fabulous legendary women, Medusa. From being considered the representation of true evil to now being considered a symbol of femininity, the story of Medusa has been a topic of debate and discussion; both from a woman and a man's point of view.  Before further getting into the details, I want to say that these thoughts and opinions are purely mine and are not intended to harm another. Who Was Medusa? Medusa was one of the three Gorgon sisters in Greek mythology. Gorgons are creatures who have venomous snakes instead of their hair, who also ...
Read more

WORLD ENVIRONMENT DAY 2021

By Tanisha Ilwadi -
Image
Anything that surrounds us, whether it be biotic (living) or abiotic (no-living), including physical, chemical or other natural forces, in this case non-artificial, is called as environment. It provides us with essential resources like food, water, air, soil, etc. It is also a home to different living species which are dependant on each other for survival. This is also known as the ecosystem. Therefore, our environment plays an important role in healthy living and the sustainability of existing life on our Earth. However, recently there have been many threats to these important resources. Trees are getting cut down, soil erosion is occurring, water bodies are getting contaminated, the air around us is filled with pollutants, some species of animals are changing their living pattern whereas some are going extinct. Few of the major reasons for this drastic change are deforestation, pollution of air, water, soil and global warming. These do not only affect the environment, but also us a...
Read more